The Messy Middle

The Messy Middle

Upgrading My Life

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Kim White
May 04, 2025
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I’ve stated that upgrading my life has been a goal, and I think I have achieved it in many ways. Thank God. Moving states in the past month has been challenging and stressful, but worth it. God is doing a new thing in my life! He has already begun! I can see some of what He is up to, and other blessings lie ahead. He works this way for all of us. There is never a moment when God isn’t working to give us the most merciful life—even if our outward circumstances don’t seem to align with that fact.

If you, like me, desire to upgrade your life, talk to God about it. He already knows what’s on your heart so go to Him with it all. The doubt, frustrations, questions, fears, and He will meet you there. He will also meet you through reading His word. The Bible is full of examples of people who wondered, doubted, and felt fear and frustration and we can read how God came through for them every single time. He won’t ever leave you hanging alone either. He never leaves, forsakes, or turns His back to His children. He will continue to guide, provide, and care for you. Your new thing ahead might look similar or completely different than what you thought, but God is good in all of it. We can trust Him.

My husband and I have had many recent conversations about the gift the Bible is to us. The Bible is truly God’s love letter to humanity. Is all of it pleasant or easy to digest? No. Can you find God’s grace throughout? Absolutely. Knowing more about the God who loves me is a blessing. The older I get the more I crave time reading the Bible and learning more about Jesus. Reading Scripture has helped ground me in truth over the past few months (ahem, years) when my outward life seemed to have gone off the rails. I had questioned God several times about where my life had gotten off track. What happened God? Why? You know what? He can handle all my questions and yours. And the answers are found in His word and through trusting Him.

I’m in the middle of an auto-immune flare which is the result of increased stress, less quality sleep, selling one home and buying another, renovating, and eating in restaurants for two months. Not to mention my last yoga workout was two months ago. It’s also the result of clinging to some things when I should have given them to Jesus. And I need to remember boundaries are healthy in more ways than one. Above all, I remind myself I can trust Him with everything. I know the health reset I need and I’m excited about it. I’m blessed to be creating the reset I need from basically a new kitchen. We still have boxes in the living room, kitchen trim to reinstall, locks to change out, cabinets to hang, and an electrical panel in the hallway I get to cover creatively. We’ve tackled everything from missing mailbox keys and improperly installed flooring to a still-leaking AC unit. There is still a lot of work that needs to be done but we’re getting there.

I shared a poll a few months back asking if you’d be interested in some before-and-after photos of this cute condo and everyone was so positive about it. So here are a few photos of where things began.

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